It has been some time since I've been able to blog. I have had issues with my computer, but also have been busy in keeping up with Philip. Like I told you before, he has had trouble with breathing at night. Over the past week, the problem has intensified. His speech is more difficult to understand. He is fatigued during the day, and immediately falls asleep once his head hits the pillow at night.
Psalms 30 has become my friend over the past few weeks. The song just ministered to me in its message of obvious suffering, but the ending joy and resolution in knowing God is in control. All we could do during the night is try to hold Philip upright or in different positions to attempt to help him breathe better. It was futile. Santhosh and I just wept before God. What do we do? Where can we go?
Weeping may endure for the night. I heard Israel Houghton once say that joy comes in the morning--or when we "wake up." We may not necessarily have the answer we were looking for, but we are aware that God is here, and that is enough. We wake up to His salvation, and the hope we have in Him. God knows Philip. God knows what he is going through right now. God has a plan. We will trust God in His perfect work. I know that this "marred vessel" is being reshaped and remolded. It will not be discarded. Praise God for His peace that passes all understanding. Thank you for your prayers on our behalf. Don't worry, God is in control in all your situations. Trust Him and listen for His still, small voice.
Praying for you!